I've been sedated these past few days (oh joy), due to my first surgical experience (Wow-wee Jolly gee!)

I will say, it's not too fun for someone like me who already fears needles. Mainly the IV. I would have had no problems if the sleeping method was differant, via pills or gas..or something. But they used an IV, and I will say it was the scariest thing I have been through. Traumatizing I guess. Basically made me very frustrated to the point of hysteria, I didn't know what else to do.

So they put the IV in me, and I was already freaking out. It's not the pain really; it's a fairly small needle, so it doesn't hurt too much. It's the thought that counts- That a needle has penetrated my skin, and will inject chemicals that will flow my blood stream and put me to sleep. It's probably the worst thing in the world for me.

So anyways, the medicine started to do it's thing, and I was crying and laughing at the same time, because I just didn't know what to do anymore, I was helpless, and I was holding my mom's hand as hard as I could, as if I was dying. Honestly, I was really scared. I was watching the IV pouch drop its chemicals into the tube, and I could feel it entering me, as my legs and arms were becoming numb. I was really trying to fight it. I could feel my heart rate dropping, and my whole body was becoming at rest, due to the damn chemicals. I don't remember anything from there, and it only lasted about 20 seconds before I was knocked out, although it seemed longer.

I woke up a few hours later in the recovery room, knowing perfectly well what happened.

Now I have stitches in my mouth from where 4 wisdom teeth once resided, and near-halucinagenic pills to help me sleep and feel numb.

The worst part of all this, is the liquid diet. God I can't wait to eat normal food again. What I'm a bit worried about also, is the weight I might be loosing; about 10-20 pounds perhaps. Which isn't all too great, being that I'm more or less always needing to gain weight, rather than loosing it. I can't wait to eat real food again.